Today = Fail

I heart you all gb girls, ZN and stalker. Thx for coming, really appreciate the fact that you all bother making the time to come down (:

Spent a lazy rainy day at home, studying and watching my favorite cartoon as the rain pitter patters on my window pane. Then I started counting how many days it has been. I realized, in a blink of an eye, alrdy a hundred over days have. Then i started remembering how happy I've been these past few weeks, even months without you. Life has never been better. With the bestest friends around, with their constant texts and lil'things they do for me all the time, they're all i could ever ask for. I don't miss your presence anymore really, I'm good. Its been months, five months since i last thought of you. And I'm happy.

Studied a teeny weeny bit and gave many pleasant surprises with lil' cupcakes and cookies :D If you tried, was it nice? Tell me k. :D Sorry to those who didn't receive, there weren't enough to go around )= & Oh sweetie so sorry for cancelling on you so abruptly. Hope you had a good day tho. (Teehee i'm so happy you like your cupcake! Customized a denise one. ^^) Thx to kexin's video posted on her blog, i keep hearing Girly Man playing in my head gah. I feel the sudden urge to download it ( oh i can rap the first part of it alrdy!)

You know you get this warm fuzzy feeling when you just made someone smile? Or laughing so hard at each other because of a funny face either one of you made after mugging a whole day? And then you'd tell yourself smth like, omggg i love them. I don't get this type of feeling anymore when i see you guys once a week there alrdy. I feel very drained, its like feeling really exhausted aft a whole week, okay, I'm sorry but i really have to blog this. After reading what a so-called close friend wrote about me, I really can't understand her anymore. Time and again, she kept finding fault with the three of us(excluding herself), thinking about what she wrote, (are you really right about us? Are you.) I have 101 questions in my head. People change, over the years, all of us change too, havent you? And how are you so certain that the change in us three is bad? And how sure are you of yourself that you haven't changed? How about the change in you? Who are we to judge each other? Is he all you ever want? Can you at least think about the things you posted about me and the other person on the other side of the world? Was it even fair to us two? Y'know I used to picture the four of us all so happy in CC pillow fighting in the room or chilling out at some poolside with bikinis when we are older. I thought being really close, would just bring us closer, but seems like I've been too naive. Why do the three of us have to put up with you pointing fingers at us saying we done wrong? Are you flawless, my dear? Ya fine, I'm too cowardly to speak to you face to face, but i also know that confronting you would just turn into a pointless argument. Whats there to say? Shouldn't we stop judging and cherish the best moments we have with each other only every once a week? Didn't you ever felt that we cared for you? Because we always and forever will, friend. Pinky promise.

Do we honestly require a hierarchy of friends? Best friends, good friends, acquaintances, how different are the lot? Is it not the same care that should be shown to them all? Is it not love that joins us? Love is the same, always. Anything else would be flawed and invaluable. Impeccable, that is what it should be. A gem of perfect brilliance, a storm of harmless nature. Dearest, it is my only wish. Give me the courage to face the onslaught, the stomach to face the bloodshed. This earth needs more than what it has.
Taken from Peter's post on August 28.